fish.

http://rradwe.blogspot.com/
come here, i want a new blog. i promise i'm less grumpy.

this is how we ride on the moon.

ugh. i need to be straight up now.

beedoo.

not alot of people have the courage to say what's on their mind.
wouldn't it just have eaten away at you?
i'm glad that you were honest.
you did.

maybe now it's someone elses turn?

sigh-sigh-sigh

time for whinge.

i dnw. so i have a mega crush on this girl. have done for a wee bit now. and i told her. it took me sometime to decide whether to tell her or not because she's going through alot at the moment and doesn't really know where her head/heart belongs. that's ok, most people have no idea where either of these belong. i guess we don't know till we know and when we do know i'm pretty sure it will always involve a certain someone.

anywho, so i told her...after a glass of liquid courage or two it just kinda came out. there has been flirting involved, definatley from my side if not hers too. but i'm pretty sure it was reciprocated. and now, it's weird.. like between us. conversation has gone from constant communication to a few texts a day.

i wish i was psychic. then maybe i'd know what was going on, i'm terrible at reading people most of the time.

AHAHA.

this lady is amazing!

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/09/party.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+Hyperbole-and-a-half+%28Hyperbole-And-A-Half%29

LOL.

to the girl with the mousey hair.

ahh crushes.
i don't know why but they come with such a warm feeling.
talking to her.
seeing her.
even just hearing her name.
sigh.

i haven't rambled in almost a month!

wow.

i haven't posted in a while >.<.


the last few days i've found myself really questioning my motives in a certain situation. fighting the positives with the negatives and coming to a draw. having some of the negatives be huge influences in my life and the same with some of the positives.

but something happened today. something that caught me by complete and utter suprise. to do with a person/people. well of course, everything has something to do with someone. and it has just made me so happy. like this thing i have thought about happening briefly in the past but then pushing it away due to the fact that i thought it would be a pretty rare happening.

but it happened today, and i'm glad it did. opened up my eyes to the fact that you can't make things happen, they just do happen. and alot of the time it's when you least expect it. but i can tell you now, hvaing it happen when you least expect it feels so much greater than pushing it and expecting it.

:D happy face

rambles and such.

bad situations.


there are three ways of dealing with them.

you can be given the lemon, have a hissy fit and get all upset because you werent given strawberries.

you can take the lemon and make lemonade, making a bad situation a good one.

or you can take the lemon and whip out the tequilla and salt. temporarily removing memory of the bad and replacing it with warm fuzzies. only to wake up with alot less than warm fuzzies.

i have approached bad situations all three of these ways. sometimes i've learnt, other times i haven't. i think it also depends on who? what? when? where? why? how? these can factor big time into how you choose to handle what's thrown at you. or in some cases.. what you've created.

sometimes lemonade isn't the answer, but nor is getting shitty or tequilla. sometimes a situation is irreversible and un-fixable. where do we go from here?

if you try go backwards you'll trip over. going forward, you might still trip over but at least you are able to see where your going and hopefully avoid those 'bad situations' that you met previously.

dfd

haha this is epic

he's back.

to agyness' left: a younger, healthier version of Joey Ramone?
all he needs is some shades and he's set.

blah..

thanks heather :]

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
closed. child-hood habit i think..

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
i'm a flatting student, what do you think?

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
out, i'm so lazy when it comes to making my bed

4. Would you rather be attacked by a bear or a swarm of bees?
bear. i'm allergic to bees >.<

5. Do you have freckles?
a few on my shoulders/upper back

6. What is your biggest pet peeve?
people who use big words when they don't even know what they mean

7. Have you ever peed in the woods?
indeed. new years '10. we didnt have a toilet

8. Do you ever dance if there’s no music playing?
if i'm doing my happy dance

9. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
sometimes. subconsciously

10. Is it ok for guys to wear pink?
i guess?

11. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
i don't like chicken nuggets. i havent had them since i got happy meals at mcdonalds

12. What is your favorite food?
hmmm.. does mayonnaise count? and cheese?... together?

13. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
donnie darko. HAIRSPRAY! i could watch hairspray everyday if i had the time!

14. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
i did brownies for like a day

15. Can you change the oil on a car?
yep

16. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
ahyes -__-

17. Ever ran out of gas?
yes

18. Are you lazy?
more often than not. if i dont have something to do

19. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
witch.. uhm i think mum just recycled my outfit >.<

20. How many languages can you speak?
english. a weeeeee bit of japanese and swedish

21. Who is better…Leno or Letterman?
eh? i watched david letterman once, but only because jessica biel was on..

22. Do you sing in the car?
yup, i love singing out loud

23. Ever eat a pierogi?
what?

24. First concert?
trueblis at the auckland town hall hah

25. Where would you be able to spend hours and be happy?
on my skateboard

26. What’s your favorite kind of doughnut?
jam donuts. om nom nom

27. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
16mm tunnel. tongue. ear.
tattoos' on back, arm, hips and hand

28. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
d

29. Are you still friends with the people you knew in middle school or high school?
some of them :]

30. What is the last thing you ate?
salsa grain waves

31. What did you want to be when you grew up?
a statician. no jokes. but it is rather funny now

32. Name three things that are close to you:
mockup for packing brief. mac. mobile phone

33. What was your best subject in school?
design.. or maybe p.e?

34. What is your favourite restaurant?
la padella up in akl.. uhm does fiddells count?

35. Any hidden talents?
i have hitchhikers thumbs? and i can roll my tongue into a 3 leaved clover..

36. What is your favourite girl’s name?
utsukushii, it means beautiful in japanese

37. Would you rather be a rock star or a famous athlete?
party like a rock, party like a rockstar

38. What are you wearing right now?
jeans. my grandpa cardi

39. Did you graduate from college?
nope

40. Do you have any nicknames?
lou. weezle cheezle. louise [my nickname for when mums mad at me]

41. How do YOU de-stress?
watch hairspray.. uhm sleep. talk to ellie

42. What’s the longest amount of time you’ve gone without food?
2 days? i dont know

hmm.

i know this is just a joke, but i still find it somewhat offensive.
someone had to get the idea from somewhere....

bieber fever.

i posted this blog sometime ago:

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

bieber.

oh justin. justin, justin, justin.

at first i found myself disliking you simply for that fact that your music sounds like a mash together of everything else mainstream in the industry, but yesterday to my disgust i found myself sub-consciously singing along to your music.

WTFFF?!

i dont even know the name of this song, or what its about.. yet you seem to be good at getting into peoples minds without permission and brainwashing them. did usher teach you this? probably. he's good at that too.

oh oh oh..
shit.

please stop making music, im rather ashamed with myself.
ohwell.
soon you'll be smoking too much crack to do anything anyway.

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i would now like to inform you all that i no longer disgust the biebz. infact i think he's pretty damn rad.

laugh at me.
i dont care.

justin bieber. you are amazing :]

cellar door.

does time go fast enough? or too fast.

sometimes i wish it would go fast but then i also wish it to go slow.

i sometimes wish i had the power to control time.. but then it would just get screwed up.. kinda like in click.

but some things are realllllyyy hard to wait for, i quite frequently hope that things i am waiting for would come tomorrow, rather than in a few months.

because waiting is hard.
then again, it will be well worth the wait.

for now, i will miss you.

battle for the sun.

who do you think you are?

you think you rule it all.
you think everything you do is done first by you.
and anybody else who does it is merely shadowing you.
wrong.

you aren't the first person in this world.
after all you do share it with 6,854,901,988+/- people.

your style, your habits, your way of living... someone did it before you. someone will always do it before you.

so stop thinking you are the creator, the magic, of this world.

everyone is influenced. i am influenced. that is how people survive by learning good..and sometimes bad habits and choices from other people.

sure you can put your own wee spin on it but at the end of the day someone else has probably put that same spin on it too.

i'm not saying don't be yourself, everyone should be themselves. but you, my fellow earth-dwelling friend are not the source of everybody elses ways.

so, please, stop thinking you are.

that girl's a genius.

my last post was on the 21st of june. it is now the 13th of july. i am slacking.
but i have been busy.
mid year portfolio: finished
finally.

i discovered good luck this weekend. man i miss my gangster beats.

wellington is cold, go figure.

toy story 3 = dark, too dark for little kids. but still good.

ellie is back in the house, finally. and god did i miss jumping on her bed with her while blasting her ipod-tastic beats.

nestle mocha sachets are pretty much a god-send.

wellingtons cold weather/my landlords slackness towards home insulation means HUGE power bill. $178.63 for myself over a month to be precise.





don't chew your draws. it's not good for you.

caligynephobia.

i want to meet someone. someone nice. beautiful. fun. and all up someone who i can be myself around.

i see people who interest me. who grab my attention when i'm walking through the streets.
i wish i had the courage to walk up to them. to say just a simple "hello".

that's not "normal" though is it?
how would you react?

i did meet someone not long ago. through a friend. someone who i really took a shining to and have thought about quite often since. it's not the right situation though. perhaps i can make it the right situation? or maybe i will just have to leave it up to patience and time. half a country isn't much but i don't really know this person. and you can't get to know someone via msn or facebook etc.

i'm just going to come out and say this. maybe you read this, maybe you don't.. i don't know, i'm not psychic. however.. i will be in akl this weekend. if you do read this, let's go for coffee [i'm a cliche, i know]. you should know who you are. if you don't read this i am going to text you anyway.

kakorrhaphiophobia- the fear of rejection.
to fear rejection is to live lonely.

i will just leave with these last words:

good things take time.

mad world.

i don't like you.
you've changed.
yes i have to, but i think my change has been for the better.
i find your change sad.
you used to have a much better mind.

moloko and a slovo.

pour a drink.
drink it.
pour a drink.
drink it.
this used to be me.

i'm not saying i don't drink anymore but i just don't really feel the need.
i will have a beer or two with friends, maybe once in a while a long island iced tea.

we can all admit i used to drink a bugger load. but we can all also admit that i fudged up. i wasn't working. i wasn't doing anything productive. all i cared about was socializing.

i would say wellingtons changed me, not the city itself but what i'm doing here. working, studying, meeting new people. it's good for me.
it's also my realization though of how much i was screwing myself up. and my mom.
my appreciation for her has grown immensly.

i'm alot better now. i dont have time to screw up.

hey jude.

i had a dream last night. maybe not a dream but more an idea.

i will need about 4 litres of fluro paint. a uv light. an empty street. 17 people and 16 trikes.