i haven't rambled in almost a month!

wow.

i haven't posted in a while >.<.


the last few days i've found myself really questioning my motives in a certain situation. fighting the positives with the negatives and coming to a draw. having some of the negatives be huge influences in my life and the same with some of the positives.

but something happened today. something that caught me by complete and utter suprise. to do with a person/people. well of course, everything has something to do with someone. and it has just made me so happy. like this thing i have thought about happening briefly in the past but then pushing it away due to the fact that i thought it would be a pretty rare happening.

but it happened today, and i'm glad it did. opened up my eyes to the fact that you can't make things happen, they just do happen. and alot of the time it's when you least expect it. but i can tell you now, hvaing it happen when you least expect it feels so much greater than pushing it and expecting it.

:D happy face