this is how we ride on the moon.

ugh. i need to be straight up now.

beedoo.

not alot of people have the courage to say what's on their mind.
wouldn't it just have eaten away at you?
i'm glad that you were honest.
you did.

maybe now it's someone elses turn?

sigh-sigh-sigh

time for whinge.

i dnw. so i have a mega crush on this girl. have done for a wee bit now. and i told her. it took me sometime to decide whether to tell her or not because she's going through alot at the moment and doesn't really know where her head/heart belongs. that's ok, most people have no idea where either of these belong. i guess we don't know till we know and when we do know i'm pretty sure it will always involve a certain someone.

anywho, so i told her...after a glass of liquid courage or two it just kinda came out. there has been flirting involved, definatley from my side if not hers too. but i'm pretty sure it was reciprocated. and now, it's weird.. like between us. conversation has gone from constant communication to a few texts a day.

i wish i was psychic. then maybe i'd know what was going on, i'm terrible at reading people most of the time.

AHAHA.

this lady is amazing!

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/09/party.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+Hyperbole-and-a-half+%28Hyperbole-And-A-Half%29

LOL.

to the girl with the mousey hair.

ahh crushes.
i don't know why but they come with such a warm feeling.
talking to her.
seeing her.
even just hearing her name.
sigh.

i haven't rambled in almost a month!

wow.

i haven't posted in a while >.<.


the last few days i've found myself really questioning my motives in a certain situation. fighting the positives with the negatives and coming to a draw. having some of the negatives be huge influences in my life and the same with some of the positives.

but something happened today. something that caught me by complete and utter suprise. to do with a person/people. well of course, everything has something to do with someone. and it has just made me so happy. like this thing i have thought about happening briefly in the past but then pushing it away due to the fact that i thought it would be a pretty rare happening.

but it happened today, and i'm glad it did. opened up my eyes to the fact that you can't make things happen, they just do happen. and alot of the time it's when you least expect it. but i can tell you now, hvaing it happen when you least expect it feels so much greater than pushing it and expecting it.

:D happy face

rambles and such.

bad situations.


there are three ways of dealing with them.

you can be given the lemon, have a hissy fit and get all upset because you werent given strawberries.

you can take the lemon and make lemonade, making a bad situation a good one.

or you can take the lemon and whip out the tequilla and salt. temporarily removing memory of the bad and replacing it with warm fuzzies. only to wake up with alot less than warm fuzzies.

i have approached bad situations all three of these ways. sometimes i've learnt, other times i haven't. i think it also depends on who? what? when? where? why? how? these can factor big time into how you choose to handle what's thrown at you. or in some cases.. what you've created.

sometimes lemonade isn't the answer, but nor is getting shitty or tequilla. sometimes a situation is irreversible and un-fixable. where do we go from here?

if you try go backwards you'll trip over. going forward, you might still trip over but at least you are able to see where your going and hopefully avoid those 'bad situations' that you met previously.

dfd

haha this is epic

he's back.

to agyness' left: a younger, healthier version of Joey Ramone?
all he needs is some shades and he's set.

blah..

thanks heather :]

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
closed. child-hood habit i think..

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
i'm a flatting student, what do you think?

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
out, i'm so lazy when it comes to making my bed

4. Would you rather be attacked by a bear or a swarm of bees?
bear. i'm allergic to bees >.<

5. Do you have freckles?
a few on my shoulders/upper back

6. What is your biggest pet peeve?
people who use big words when they don't even know what they mean

7. Have you ever peed in the woods?
indeed. new years '10. we didnt have a toilet

8. Do you ever dance if there’s no music playing?
if i'm doing my happy dance

9. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
sometimes. subconsciously

10. Is it ok for guys to wear pink?
i guess?

11. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
i don't like chicken nuggets. i havent had them since i got happy meals at mcdonalds

12. What is your favorite food?
hmmm.. does mayonnaise count? and cheese?... together?

13. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
donnie darko. HAIRSPRAY! i could watch hairspray everyday if i had the time!

14. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
i did brownies for like a day

15. Can you change the oil on a car?
yep

16. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
ahyes -__-

17. Ever ran out of gas?
yes

18. Are you lazy?
more often than not. if i dont have something to do

19. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
witch.. uhm i think mum just recycled my outfit >.<

20. How many languages can you speak?
english. a weeeeee bit of japanese and swedish

21. Who is better…Leno or Letterman?
eh? i watched david letterman once, but only because jessica biel was on..

22. Do you sing in the car?
yup, i love singing out loud

23. Ever eat a pierogi?
what?

24. First concert?
trueblis at the auckland town hall hah

25. Where would you be able to spend hours and be happy?
on my skateboard

26. What’s your favorite kind of doughnut?
jam donuts. om nom nom

27. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
16mm tunnel. tongue. ear.
tattoos' on back, arm, hips and hand

28. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
d

29. Are you still friends with the people you knew in middle school or high school?
some of them :]

30. What is the last thing you ate?
salsa grain waves

31. What did you want to be when you grew up?
a statician. no jokes. but it is rather funny now

32. Name three things that are close to you:
mockup for packing brief. mac. mobile phone

33. What was your best subject in school?
design.. or maybe p.e?

34. What is your favourite restaurant?
la padella up in akl.. uhm does fiddells count?

35. Any hidden talents?
i have hitchhikers thumbs? and i can roll my tongue into a 3 leaved clover..

36. What is your favourite girl’s name?
utsukushii, it means beautiful in japanese

37. Would you rather be a rock star or a famous athlete?
party like a rock, party like a rockstar

38. What are you wearing right now?
jeans. my grandpa cardi

39. Did you graduate from college?
nope

40. Do you have any nicknames?
lou. weezle cheezle. louise [my nickname for when mums mad at me]

41. How do YOU de-stress?
watch hairspray.. uhm sleep. talk to ellie

42. What’s the longest amount of time you’ve gone without food?
2 days? i dont know

hmm.

i know this is just a joke, but i still find it somewhat offensive.
someone had to get the idea from somewhere....

bieber fever.

i posted this blog sometime ago:

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

bieber.

oh justin. justin, justin, justin.

at first i found myself disliking you simply for that fact that your music sounds like a mash together of everything else mainstream in the industry, but yesterday to my disgust i found myself sub-consciously singing along to your music.

WTFFF?!

i dont even know the name of this song, or what its about.. yet you seem to be good at getting into peoples minds without permission and brainwashing them. did usher teach you this? probably. he's good at that too.

oh oh oh..
shit.

please stop making music, im rather ashamed with myself.
ohwell.
soon you'll be smoking too much crack to do anything anyway.

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i would now like to inform you all that i no longer disgust the biebz. infact i think he's pretty damn rad.

laugh at me.
i dont care.

justin bieber. you are amazing :]

cellar door.

does time go fast enough? or too fast.

sometimes i wish it would go fast but then i also wish it to go slow.

i sometimes wish i had the power to control time.. but then it would just get screwed up.. kinda like in click.

but some things are realllllyyy hard to wait for, i quite frequently hope that things i am waiting for would come tomorrow, rather than in a few months.

because waiting is hard.
then again, it will be well worth the wait.

for now, i will miss you.

battle for the sun.

who do you think you are?

you think you rule it all.
you think everything you do is done first by you.
and anybody else who does it is merely shadowing you.
wrong.

you aren't the first person in this world.
after all you do share it with 6,854,901,988+/- people.

your style, your habits, your way of living... someone did it before you. someone will always do it before you.

so stop thinking you are the creator, the magic, of this world.

everyone is influenced. i am influenced. that is how people survive by learning good..and sometimes bad habits and choices from other people.

sure you can put your own wee spin on it but at the end of the day someone else has probably put that same spin on it too.

i'm not saying don't be yourself, everyone should be themselves. but you, my fellow earth-dwelling friend are not the source of everybody elses ways.

so, please, stop thinking you are.

that girl's a genius.

my last post was on the 21st of june. it is now the 13th of july. i am slacking.
but i have been busy.
mid year portfolio: finished
finally.

i discovered good luck this weekend. man i miss my gangster beats.

wellington is cold, go figure.

toy story 3 = dark, too dark for little kids. but still good.

ellie is back in the house, finally. and god did i miss jumping on her bed with her while blasting her ipod-tastic beats.

nestle mocha sachets are pretty much a god-send.

wellingtons cold weather/my landlords slackness towards home insulation means HUGE power bill. $178.63 for myself over a month to be precise.





don't chew your draws. it's not good for you.

caligynephobia.

i want to meet someone. someone nice. beautiful. fun. and all up someone who i can be myself around.

i see people who interest me. who grab my attention when i'm walking through the streets.
i wish i had the courage to walk up to them. to say just a simple "hello".

that's not "normal" though is it?
how would you react?

i did meet someone not long ago. through a friend. someone who i really took a shining to and have thought about quite often since. it's not the right situation though. perhaps i can make it the right situation? or maybe i will just have to leave it up to patience and time. half a country isn't much but i don't really know this person. and you can't get to know someone via msn or facebook etc.

i'm just going to come out and say this. maybe you read this, maybe you don't.. i don't know, i'm not psychic. however.. i will be in akl this weekend. if you do read this, let's go for coffee [i'm a cliche, i know]. you should know who you are. if you don't read this i am going to text you anyway.

kakorrhaphiophobia- the fear of rejection.
to fear rejection is to live lonely.

i will just leave with these last words:

good things take time.

mad world.

i don't like you.
you've changed.
yes i have to, but i think my change has been for the better.
i find your change sad.
you used to have a much better mind.

moloko and a slovo.

pour a drink.
drink it.
pour a drink.
drink it.
this used to be me.

i'm not saying i don't drink anymore but i just don't really feel the need.
i will have a beer or two with friends, maybe once in a while a long island iced tea.

we can all admit i used to drink a bugger load. but we can all also admit that i fudged up. i wasn't working. i wasn't doing anything productive. all i cared about was socializing.

i would say wellingtons changed me, not the city itself but what i'm doing here. working, studying, meeting new people. it's good for me.
it's also my realization though of how much i was screwing myself up. and my mom.
my appreciation for her has grown immensly.

i'm alot better now. i dont have time to screw up.

hey jude.

i had a dream last night. maybe not a dream but more an idea.

i will need about 4 litres of fluro paint. a uv light. an empty street. 17 people and 16 trikes.

jeans please.

cheap monday customized tour.
http://www.cheapmonday.com/customized/

ugh.

i have the worst cold ever.
i don't get sick often at all, but when i do it's really bad.
however, the show must go on. i have job bags due.
so i'm sitting in class covered in vicks, knocking back the coldral and drinking litres of water.

fun times.

the week that has been but still hasn't come.

Monday.
woke up with no feeling in my body whatsoever, wellington is getting really friggen cold.
also playing on my mind was the knowledge that my tutor was planning on showing the film 'Helvetica' today in design theory, i hate helvetica, it's just way too boring. buuut we watched it, and i loved it because it featured some pretty wonderful designers who were also opposed to the extent in which helvetica is being used in advertising and sign writing these days. so that made me happy.
i then went to work, monday isn't usually busy but good grief we were busy, but that's ok cause i had ravioli for dinner :]

This Morning.
woke up with a bit more bodily function thanks to my wonderful FREE heater.
now in class procrastinating a job bag due in two days, and excited for my new job bag which is corporate i.d YAY.

wednesday.
BEST.DAY.EVEEER! I get my new boots today from the army store, i have been paying them off and the day has finally arrived to pay the last $10! they are magical. will post picture a.s.a.p.

thursday.
nothing special going on here, uni, eat etc...

FRIDAY!
an even better day because.... RORY IS COMING! yay i havent seen this boy properly since i left akl to live here and hes coming! so im gonna take him to mighty mighty, then the mighty mighty markets on saturday and shopping and coffee, and all round happy times. i'm so friggen excited.

saturday.
see above.

sunday.
nothing.
work.

that is all.

lovelovelove.

http://www.stolengirlfriendsclub.com/main.html#

the website won't let me steal the images :[ but the lookbook mens collection is wonderful dipped in happiness. and the brown boots. wow. just wow.

i want boots.

yet another post.

bad resolution but this is a job bag i have just finished in class. had to make a black and white ad for an existing company. i chose cheap monday jeans to appear in 1am magazine.

now i really wanna be a dinosaur ^_^

this link is from a blog i follow

champagnehangover.blogspot.com

http://champagnehangover.blogspot.com/2010/05/photobucket.html

amazing!

she's a lady, woah woah woah

foote asked me to do a shoot for him, i agreed as i thought it would be fun. and it was. my muscles hurt a bit and the makeup was a bitch to get off but it was worth it. this is one of the final outcomes. i like it alot.

that is all.

blanket man.

so, i was listening to the radio this morning on my way to class, wasn't really paying attention. eyes wandering all over the place as i skate round basin reserve. then on comes the news, and the first thing that snaps me out of my pointless daydream is hearing blanketman, guilty, cannabis and arrested all in one sentence. this intrigued me. the amount of times i have walked down courtenay place and seen blanket man with his rusty v can in one hand, a lighter in the other and that grin he has on his face that suggests he is nowhere near the world that surrounds me, is uncountable. and its only just now that police have done anything about it? he's a cool guy, never does anything to harm me, even though on the odd occasion i get "weirdo" or "dflkdfgurblegurble" yelled at me. have the police been leniant on him due to his "charming" tourist attraction or his wellington "cultural" status? i dont know, and i dont really care. i just find it really odd that its only now, after all these years, that he has actually been arrested and pleaded guilty on cannabis charges.

i just have one question, how does he charge his mp3? and don't say he's rich and lives in a mansion, he isn't and he doesn't.

that is all.

o_o

so if anyone was wondering how the quit smoking is going? it's not, it never was. i failed after like half a day.

it wasn't that the patches didn't work, it was just when i smelt tobacco i felt the craving over powering the patches.

i was told i couldn't smoke while wearing them so i'd just take them off.

easy peasy.

that is all.

keep talkin' that blah blah blah.

yes i took this from another blog because it seemed fun. this is my face not caring -----> o_o

3 names I go by… 3 ways to rob a bank
1. run in shouting "shut the fuck up and get down on the ground ma' fuckers"
2. point a gun at the teller
3. ask politley, they'll probably think your joking or mentally retarded but didn't your parents ever teach you manners?

3 jobs I have had… 3 nasty habits I had as a child
1. sucking my fingers. not my thumb my middle finger and ring finger.
2. eating playdo
3. eating ants. they taste magnetic.

3 places I have lived… 3 words that I feel like a dick when I use
1. moist.
2. simple.
3. g-unit (not technically a word but once again this is my face not caring ----> o_o)

3 favorite drinks… 3 types of alcohol I only drink as a last resort
1. scrumpys.
2. vodka.
3. beer balls from the mill.
these aren't really last resorts. i'm a student. i'll drink anything.

3 TV shows I watch… 3 types of porn which confuse me
i honestly can't answer this, simply because i don't watch porn.
yes i HAVE but it didn't confuse me. it's pretty straight forward.

3 places I have been… 3 lies I like to tell when I'm drunk
1. "i will be able to wake up in time for uni"
2. "i'm miley cyrus' girlfriend"
3. "you are the coolest person ever!" (said to stranger)

3 places I would like to visit… 3 canoe-related pieces of advice
1. Believe those who are seeking the truth; doubt those who own a canoe.
2. Without a canoe, wisdom bears no fruit.
3. No question is so difficult to answer as that to which the answer is obvious. canoe.

3 fave retro TV shows… 3 ways to leave your lover
1. politley.
2. sensibly.
3. quickly.

3 fave dishes… Actually this question is fine.
1. glass.
2. bowl.
3. shot glass.

3 things I'm looking forward to… 3 things I can't be mature about
1. lubricates and penetrates. on the crc car oil advert.
2. couples.
3. when i'm pissed off. i won't be mature, i will just make up stupid shit in my head about people to make myself feel better. its fun. try it.

that is all.
for now... bum bum bum
hah bum

no really that is all. louise do your work.

wa wa wee wa.

want more? go to: http://www.cheapmonday.com/#collections/collection-ss10/boy/news/fashion-show-ss2010/images

loves it.

that is all.

20 years.

so, 20 years ago to this day i was born.
20 bloody years, i know its not old, but god does it sound like such a longtime.
bring on the twenties!

that is all.

doritos.

i love you, so very much.

but i think you should stop being so addictive.

my pockets are becoming rapidly lighter, while my tummy becomes rapidly fuller.

not to mention when you are paired with guacamole and cheese.

that is all.

:[

so i was looking through my uncles facebook today and i came across this.

http://tvnz.co.nz/attitude/s2010-e3-video-3432946

it's a story he did on tv one with his wife about their unborn down syndrome child. i havent seen this family in over a year and it makes me sad that i have to find these things out through facebook. but then i watched it and all my anger towards there lack of contact just turned to tears and sadness for what they must be going through right now.

makes you think.

meet frank.

this is frank.
for my childrens book i'm currently doing in class.

once it is complete i will post the whole thing on here.

that is all.

hey you'se

sitting on the bus in akl city the other day, minding my own business.
then a bunch of kids hop on, blasting 50 cent from the poor speakers of there cellphone.
ok this annoyed me but i easily blocked it out.
what i couldn't block out was their grammar.
deciding to take a seat right behind me, i could hear everything they were saying.

e.g.
"aw you'se guys was so funny last night bro. when you'se was trying ta pick up those chicks ay"

"haha aw nah bro what was funny was when you'se were tryna have a skate but you'se got munted as bro cause you'se were so wasted"

ahhh my ears. my ears.
where do people pick up grammar like this i mean it would take like a split second longer to say "you guys" instead of "you'se".

and god, no wonder you weren't "picking up those chicks ay".

that is all.

mightymighty.

oh how wondeful you are.
with your big crate beers.
and your detailed affairs.
i love you.
you are the time of my life.
whenever i want to go out.
i head to the bottom of your stairs.
and climb without fears.
because i know awaiting me.
is a great night that will be.
grawesome.

that is all.

bitch bitch bitch.

moan moan moan.
i
cbf'ed
anymore.

that is all.

patches.

so i got my quitline pack.
-excited face-
not really.

day one on the patches and so far so good. not cranky.. yet. dont want a smoke... yet. but bloody hell am i hungry. permanantley. it sucks. i think so far today i've eaten 2 family packs of doritos, one bowl of noodles, half a packet of biscuits, 2 eggs on bread and half a bowl of guacamole >.<

not looking forward to the rest of the week. poor mum that im coming home just as im quitting.

new tattoo tommorow. yay.

that is all.

ohno.

http://www.disneydreaming.com/2010/04/09/is-miley-cyrus-already-planning-her-wedding-to-liam-hemsworth/

not usually one for gossip in the celebrity world simply because half of its complete bullshit but this seems to be something thats gonna happen. i can imagine it. and... i can imagine its down fall. britney wasnt even planning to marry at 18! and look whats happened to her.

guess we'll just have to wait and see. it'll be hard to find out because she already wears a promise ring on her wedding finger but maybe ill have to look out for Liams wedding band.

this is all.

quitline.

today i saw an advert for quitline offering to post out free patches and gum so i thought 'hey, why not!'

after filling out my details i recieved a confirmation email stating that i have taken a good step towards a better future and that my quit pack would arrive in roughly 7 working days.

in the mean time i think its only fair i finish the ciggarettes i have already spent my hard earnt money on.

stay tuned for a whole lot of shitty-ness.

bieber.

oh justin. justin, justin, justin.

at first i found myself disliking you simply for that fact that your music sounds like a mash together of everything else mainstream in the industry, but yesterday to my disgust i found myself sub-consciously singing along to your music.

WTFFF?!

i dont even know the name of this song, or what its about.. yet you seem to be good at getting into peoples minds without permission and brainwashing them. did usher teach you this? probably. he's good at that too.

oh oh oh..
shit.

please stop making music, im rather ashamed with myself.
ohwell.
soon you'll be smoking too much crack to do anything anyway.

week 2 in the windy town.

well well, so far ive lasted 2 weeks and still going good. had my first day at course today and made new friends. yay. but miss my friend sheaps in akl :[

got an apartment which is friggen sweet and 10 min walk to course as well!its on hanson street which is just on the border of mount cook, i think haha im getting to know my way around but its still a bit difficult.

went to the beach on saturday and i now have beetroot ankles lol got to watch where i stick the sunblock. also joined a weekly indoor football group so bring on my new years resolution of getting a bit more active!

thats really all for now, have my first proper day at course tomorrow :]]]
goodbiiikkkeee.

dear mister gervais.

today was the 67th annual golden globe awards. i enjoy watching these shows not only to find out the best actors/actresses/screenplays/tv shows etc of the year, but they also always seem to be a good laugh. however this year... NO. ricky gervais (the office) was asked to host this years awards and at first i was like, "shit yeah, he's funny and he's in one of the funniest british comedies of this generation, should be a good show".. however two minutes in i already wanted to slap him. yeah so we know your in "the original" office, and we know your funny as hell but bagging on steve carell is a big no no in my books. not only does he bring his own edge to the office, he has starred in like a a billion more films and tv shows (18 films, 5 television shows) than you! so no ricky gervais, it wasn't funny.

yours kindly,

frank

fruck fruck yay

wellingtonnnnnnnnn

ohmy its finally all happening im going in just under 6 days now! like shit shit shit. shit shit. but im so excited its going to be awesomeness dipped in happiness. and im going to meet people and discover new bars and clubs. yuussss. but but but im also shitting myself, ive never lived out of auckland in my entire life, unless you count one month in england which doesnt really count at all. but itll be fun anyways and ill be back, so dont start celebrating just yet lol just jokes.

goodbye auckland.

nobody'sperfect

frank and alejandro, wine and cigarettes. some things are just meant to be.