i want to meet someone. someone nice. beautiful. fun. and all up someone who i can be myself around.
i see people who interest me. who grab my attention when i'm walking through the streets.
i wish i had the courage to walk up to them. to say just a simple "hello".
that's not "normal" though is it?
how would you react?
i did meet someone not long ago. through a friend. someone who i really took a shining to and have thought about quite often since. it's not the right situation though. perhaps i can make it the right situation? or maybe i will just have to leave it up to patience and time. half a country isn't much but i don't really know this person. and you can't get to know someone via msn or facebook etc.
i'm just going to come out and say this. maybe you read this, maybe you don't.. i don't know, i'm not psychic. however.. i will be in akl this weekend. if you do read this, let's go for coffee [i'm a cliche, i know]. you should know who you are. if you don't read this i am going to text you anyway.
kakorrhaphiophobia- the fear of rejection.
to fear rejection is to live lonely.
i will just leave with these last words:
good things take time.
Monday, June 21, 2010
mad world.
i don't like you.
you've changed.
yes i have to, but i think my change has been for the better.
i find your change sad.
you used to have a much better mind.
you've changed.
yes i have to, but i think my change has been for the better.
i find your change sad.
you used to have a much better mind.
moloko and a slovo.
pour a drink.
drink it.
pour a drink.
drink it.
this used to be me.
i'm not saying i don't drink anymore but i just don't really feel the need.
i will have a beer or two with friends, maybe once in a while a long island iced tea.
we can all admit i used to drink a bugger load. but we can all also admit that i fudged up. i wasn't working. i wasn't doing anything productive. all i cared about was socializing.
i would say wellingtons changed me, not the city itself but what i'm doing here. working, studying, meeting new people. it's good for me.
it's also my realization though of how much i was screwing myself up. and my mom.
my appreciation for her has grown immensly.
i'm alot better now. i dont have time to screw up.
drink it.
pour a drink.
drink it.
this used to be me.
i'm not saying i don't drink anymore but i just don't really feel the need.
i will have a beer or two with friends, maybe once in a while a long island iced tea.
we can all admit i used to drink a bugger load. but we can all also admit that i fudged up. i wasn't working. i wasn't doing anything productive. all i cared about was socializing.
i would say wellingtons changed me, not the city itself but what i'm doing here. working, studying, meeting new people. it's good for me.
it's also my realization though of how much i was screwing myself up. and my mom.
my appreciation for her has grown immensly.
i'm alot better now. i dont have time to screw up.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
hey jude.
i had a dream last night. maybe not a dream but more an idea.
i will need about 4 litres of fluro paint. a uv light. an empty street. 17 people and 16 trikes.
i will need about 4 litres of fluro paint. a uv light. an empty street. 17 people and 16 trikes.
Monday, June 7, 2010
ugh.
i have the worst cold ever.
i don't get sick often at all, but when i do it's really bad.
however, the show must go on. i have job bags due.
so i'm sitting in class covered in vicks, knocking back the coldral and drinking litres of water.
fun times.
i don't get sick often at all, but when i do it's really bad.
however, the show must go on. i have job bags due.
so i'm sitting in class covered in vicks, knocking back the coldral and drinking litres of water.
fun times.
Monday, May 31, 2010
the week that has been but still hasn't come.
Monday.
woke up with no feeling in my body whatsoever, wellington is getting really friggen cold.
also playing on my mind was the knowledge that my tutor was planning on showing the film 'Helvetica' today in design theory, i hate helvetica, it's just way too boring. buuut we watched it, and i loved it because it featured some pretty wonderful designers who were also opposed to the extent in which helvetica is being used in advertising and sign writing these days. so that made me happy.
i then went to work, monday isn't usually busy but good grief we were busy, but that's ok cause i had ravioli for dinner :]
This Morning.
woke up with a bit more bodily function thanks to my wonderful FREE heater.
now in class procrastinating a job bag due in two days, and excited for my new job bag which is corporate i.d YAY.
wednesday.
BEST.DAY.EVEEER! I get my new boots today from the army store, i have been paying them off and the day has finally arrived to pay the last $10! they are magical. will post picture a.s.a.p.
thursday.
nothing special going on here, uni, eat etc...
FRIDAY!
an even better day because.... RORY IS COMING! yay i havent seen this boy properly since i left akl to live here and hes coming! so im gonna take him to mighty mighty, then the mighty mighty markets on saturday and shopping and coffee, and all round happy times. i'm so friggen excited.
saturday.
see above.
sunday.
nothing.
work.
that is all.
woke up with no feeling in my body whatsoever, wellington is getting really friggen cold.
also playing on my mind was the knowledge that my tutor was planning on showing the film 'Helvetica' today in design theory, i hate helvetica, it's just way too boring. buuut we watched it, and i loved it because it featured some pretty wonderful designers who were also opposed to the extent in which helvetica is being used in advertising and sign writing these days. so that made me happy.
i then went to work, monday isn't usually busy but good grief we were busy, but that's ok cause i had ravioli for dinner :]
This Morning.
woke up with a bit more bodily function thanks to my wonderful FREE heater.
now in class procrastinating a job bag due in two days, and excited for my new job bag which is corporate i.d YAY.
wednesday.
BEST.DAY.EVEEER! I get my new boots today from the army store, i have been paying them off and the day has finally arrived to pay the last $10! they are magical. will post picture a.s.a.p.
thursday.
nothing special going on here, uni, eat etc...
FRIDAY!
an even better day because.... RORY IS COMING! yay i havent seen this boy properly since i left akl to live here and hes coming! so im gonna take him to mighty mighty, then the mighty mighty markets on saturday and shopping and coffee, and all round happy times. i'm so friggen excited.
saturday.
see above.
sunday.
nothing.
work.
that is all.
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